so it begins... the heart break after BlogHer & endless tears...

As much as I couldn't wait for BlogHer '11 to get here, my heart was dreading it SO much.  I knew that once it was over, so would my life in California.  Our move has always been based on the week after BlogHer and much to the heartbreak, it ended; and so will my California livin'.



The call came, the movers will be here next week, the truck will be loaded up; and so will the pieces of my broken heart :(
Am I being a little dramatic?  I don't care, quite frankly; right now it's all I can think about.  Not the fun times we will have on our once in a lifetime cross country road trip, not, the amazing pictures I will be able to take with the gorgeous camera husb bought me, not the priceless memories we will forever have because of this; just sitting here on my couch thinking about how sad I am.  How sad I am to leave my home, not this house we are renting, but my HOME... California.  Who has been my home ALL MY LIFE! 

I know that once we hit the road my tears will roll, but so will my excitement.  I am just going through the natural AND expected fears of leaving my home.  This is the first time I will move away from home, even after 14 years in the Military, 6 deployments, I always managed to stay behind with the Family.  Now my record of 35 years will be broken, for how long will be in NY? How will I adjust?  How much fun will my kids have with all of the family there? The impending "disagreements" with my MIL's heavy set opinions, are and have always been something that will be there.  But what will I do when my need for my California sunshine is eating away at me?  How will I "make do" with the east coast beaches, when in my heart of hearts I only want to go back to my beautiful San Diego beaches?

In the end, I know I will have no choice but to deal with it.  To settle down, buckle up and enjoy the ride; after all...
That's what life is right?  a fun and wild roller coaster to many of us ;)
either way I am sure you will hear/read about it ;)


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15 comments:

  1. Mommy to ♥Pickle and SugarPlum♥August 19, 2011 at 3:11 PM

    I am sad with you. But I know you will make the most of this Amazing Adventure called Life. Thankfully, with technology what it is today, we will only be the click of a button from one another. And you can always come back for a visit!

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  2. UnknownAugust 19, 2011 at 3:34 PM

    I love you Ali!!!!!!!!
    and we will definitely be calling, texting, tweeting, facebooking,skyping, and even snail mailing each other right?!?!? ;)

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  4. Becky WAugust 19, 2011 at 8:16 PM

    I am sorry you will be leaving your 'home' state. I was born in SanDiego but never lived there again as my Dad was in the Marine Corp. We live in NY...are you being stationed at Ft.Drum? I lived there for 5 years with my exhusband...just curious as I don't know another post in NY..lol Good luck in your journey.

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  5. RachelAugust 19, 2011 at 9:34 PM

    I so relate to this post, Ali. I grew up in San Diego and moved an hour south of Oregon when I was 15. Technically we're still in California, but there is NO ocean, and we might as well be in Oklahoma. You'll make it. Somehow we just do.

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  6. UnknownAugust 21, 2011 at 8:10 AM

    Blogher was my first visit to San Diego and I can see why you would be so sad to leave the beauty and weather. Hope that the transition is easy.

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  7. BeckyAugust 21, 2011 at 9:27 PM

    We will miss you. Sorry I missed getting to give you a hug goodbye, but it was really good to see you at BlogHer. And next year it's in NY anyway! Love ya, lady!

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  8. KelliAugust 22, 2011 at 10:01 AM

    ON the bright side, BlogHer is in New York next year and you will be there for it. ;-)

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  9. Maureen FitzgeraldAugust 23, 2011 at 8:56 AM

    I can relate to how you are feeling. I've moved around a bit in my life and it never did get easier to leave a place I loved. I'll be thinking of you :)

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  12. AnonymousSeptember 13, 2011 at 11:10 PM

    how many time i do not do what i want to do but do what i dont want to do

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  13. ShellySeptember 16, 2011 at 8:56 PM

    Stopping ny to daycare helluurrrrr lol.
    Hope all is Well with the fam

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  14. shonda rogersOctober 10, 2011 at 1:31 AM

    yes, i am all too familiar with the moves. thats what us military wives are good at right?
    i know you will do great whereever you go.

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  15. CynthyaOctober 31, 2011 at 11:18 PM

    oh that week was sad. u were so busy and then the next week u left.

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