Hello my BEAUTIFUL FRIENDS, I owe u all an explanation....

As many of you know, I have been having computer problems and depression issues(on my other blog)  as well lately, lol.
Well here's the deal, I have thought long and hard about how to even announce this, because it is so hard for me, but as my friends you are entitled to know;
am I making a long story longer? lol

Well, as it will not affect any of you 99% of the time, it might only be big news to me,lol...
OK, OK, no more prolonging it, lol....

We found out last week that our stay in San Diego, California will be coming to an end :(
 My Hubby's Military Career will be sending us to the East Coast :(

Hubby is originally from NY, I am from Cali and have been here all my life.  For the last 11 years of Marriage I have thrown fits, and begged for hubby to continue to get orders in this City, because I never wanted to leave, but as I have heard, ALL good things must come to an end :(

His new orders will have us move to the East Coast, exact destination is still unknown, regardless of where it is, I am so sad.
I have been dealing with depression for a very long time, and though I always knew that our stay here was never permanent, the fact of seeing it on paperwork hit me harder than a 5 ton truck :(

All week I stayed in bed, sleeping, crying, and almost everything ending with "ing" that relates to sad, lol.  It has hit me so hard, I know he is happy about going "back home" and I know that he is sad to see me sad as well, but all I keep thinking about is me and the kids.  I know they will adjust quickly, as many kids do; in addition being closer to their grandparents will be even better for them, I guess I go back to me, lol.

I am so incredibly sad, I feel lost, like I lost hope, empty, I don't want to leave, though I know I have a choice, it's not one I want to make.  I DON'T WANT TO GO :(

I know that I have NEVER written a sad post on here(that's what my other blog is for, lol), but I have made sure I ALWAYS have been honest and open about our lives, so this is why I chose to talk about it.

Being a Military Family is SOOOOOOO hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know I sound like a big baby, and I agree as well, because I know MANY Families that have moved so many times, but this is MY FIRST TIME, being forced to move from the only City I have known all my life, clear across to the other side of the country!!! 

We just moved to this house in June, WE LOVE the backyard!!!

I Finally have made friends here,

The support from the friends I have met through blogging (#jammyjam)
, the places I visit, my history, memories, and even though we don't speak I do not want to move away from my Family :(


I guess this opens up so many other subjects, of which I will post about separately to be detailed.
One good thing I guess is hubby knows how much I LOVE adventures, so to make me excited about the move, lol, he promised we could do a cross country trip, sounds fun, but I'm still sad, lol.

other subjects I will be posting about:

• my Nomination for the InfluenceSD award has been fixed, I am nominated and running for Blog of the year in San Diego, instead of running for Lifestyle ;)  So please be so kind to vote for me if you think I am worthy of it ;)  one vote per i.p address, if you vote more than once, it takes a point away, but you can click again and put the point back, lol (click green arrow next to pic to vote)
• I am attending BlogHer '10 ;)  I will be looking for sponsors to brag about ;)
• So many updates I have been neglecting due to the dumb computer, lol
• SO MANY great reviews and giveaways that I know you will love!!!!
• My Hubby's answer to my depression 

and many more things ;)
I hope you all have a wonderful day ;)
HUGS!!!